Its been a few months now, currently 3am in the middle of summer. reminds me of the nights we would stay up and just talk for hours about nothing n everything. i still miss you. i’m still in love w you. i wish it was easy to move on but i can’t, its hard when you take over my thoughts every day n night. 

i hope youre doing good. deep down im jealous at how you could move on so easily and erase me from your life. cut ties so loosely. throw my things away so easily. while i sat and cried and screamed over you for hours on end, praying the pain would leave me alone and not consume me. but it did consume me, in all of my entirety. im not the same person i used to be. ive been different ever since you left. feels like a part of me is missing and even though people say it gets better i dont think it will. 

i’ll probably always be in love with you, because in the back of my mind all i can think about is how i’m meant to be w you. nobody else has made me feel this whole. anyways, i love you Chris. forever.