Hi, I hope you’re doing fine. It’s been two weeks and I’m living in a rollercoaster of emotions. It’s like I can still feel your presence although we haven’t spoken since. 

What a tragedy. All the beautiful memories spinning in my head and I’m so greatful for those. The way you took care of me was beyond anything I have ever experienced. You lifted me up when I was down and we brought a new light in each other’s lives. 

The ugly ones just make me sad. The hurt in our eyes makes me cry. Haven’t cried this much in ages.

I refer to us as a modern day Romeo & Juliet – we loved deeply and were so infatuated but my parents would have never accepted a guy like you. Just like them, we died because we couldn’t communicate. I told you from the start we will get our fingers burned but it was worth it. 

And I wanted it to be you. We had it so good. You were like my best friend, the greatest lover and support in a difficult time in the life of mine. My twin, it’s like you were the male version of me.

Thank you for showing me what lust and love is. I’ll be forever greatful for your manners, your kind words, and will never forget that smile and those eyes. The calm I felt in your arms.

I hope you find peace, happiness and a light at the end of the shitty tunnel you’ve put yourself in. I can’t be with you but I will forever love you from distance. 

Don’t ever change, you’re the best

Julia