Dear J,
No one will ever compare. i want so bad to take you off that pedestal, but i now realize how right you were about everything. i know i love you because i’m letting you go. the best way to show you that i love you is to let you go.

I hope you find someone that makes you happy – the one that you’re looking for. i’m sorry i wasn’t enough — or maybe too much. i want so bad to go back in time and live that summer on repeat forever. but its ok. my life is going wonderfully. i wish you stayed to see the woman i’d blossom into. i want to share my happiness and my successes. i want to give you my life, my comfort, my soul, my womb, everything that makes me woman. i want you to contain me. but its time to let go and seek home within myself. to grow closer with my family. to find myself. to grow my integrity. to find my passions… and indulge in anything and everything that my heart strings pull for — no outside pressures or forces — just my heart guiding the way. i’m scared but excited to see where this journey takes me.