I wish I told you how much I really loved you. Wish i’d told you that I was so angry at you. I wish i’d told you how much I missed you. I wish i’d told you how much I feel violated and broken. I wish I’d told you every time I cried. I want to tell you how much it still hurts. But I can’t because this is for the best right? This is what God wants. He has a plan for you and I was just a piece in his grand design of you. I didn’t think it would be, but it will be hard this summer. But right now, right here, I’m breathing, drying my tears and saying goodbye. Because if I don’t I will always be a mess. Your’e love was a gift and always will be. I want the best for you. So I love you. God has a plan for you and loves you more than I do. You are perfect, a man that I am so very proud of. I am sorry, for being this way, but I was attached to you and hearing you say those words broke me and so I’m just trying to heal. I want no feeling of guilt from you to exist. Remember to smile for me and remember that Jesus loves you more than anyone else. Blessings from the very bottom of my heart. -A daughter of the king, a princess