Dear C,
I miss you so much. And I’ve told you this, but you tell me you aren’t looking to get back together. This breaks my heart. I thought that breaking up and taking a break was the best call for us, which maybe it was. But lately I’ve been thinking that it wasn’t. During the time we’ve spent apart, I’ve done a lot of thinking; mostly about you.

The whole point of a breakup/break is to stop thinking about the person you’re taking a break with. But with you, it is impossible. I think about you all the time. Every little thing reminds me of you. The foods we used to eat all the time, the places I visit that hold some of our most fondest memories, and even the clothes that we used to share. Sometimes when I miss you extra hard, I’ll grab the blanket that you gave me and hold it extra tight until I fall asleep. I still have yet to get rid of all of the pictures we took together and all of the gifts that you gave me, and it’s been 6 months. I can’t do it. I can’t just delete our history and our love just like that.

But you could, which hurt more than you’ll ever know. I kept ahold of everything because I tried to tell myself deep down that we would make it back to each other. That maybe you would fight for me, because I thought that’s what people in love did; fight for each other. Maybe I was wrong. I wish I could send this letter to you in real life because then maybe it could fix things. But I fear that you no longer love me and do not want to mend what is broken between us. If that’s the case, I need to let go instead of holding on to false hope. If there ever is the slightest chance you read this, I want you to know that I miss you, and I’m sorry. But most importantly, I still love you. I always will. 
With all of my love, 
Maddie