Dear D,

The holidays approach and all I can think about is you. I had been looking forward to spending the holidays with you, with someone I love, but sadly that wont be the case, at least not this year. You came into my life at a wonderful time and I will never ever wish that we hadn’t met, however, it’s been months since we split and I still feel like we belong together. I’m not sure if it’s because there’s still so much we haven’t done or if we really are supposed to make this work at some point but all I know is that in this present moment, we are not together.
So….
For now I have to wish you well. I hope that you find yourself and find what gives you motivation in life. I hope that the people around you bring you nothing but happiness because I saw someone in you that deserves nothing but love. I know you wish the same for me too….because you’ve told me. You think I can do better, that you aren’t good enough, that your “problems” should be the main reason I avoid you but I see beyond that. Your insomnia, depression, and anxiety do not define you. Your past doesn’t define you. I fell in love with you because you are YOU and I want to be there for you through it all.
Maybe one day, we will meet again. Call it wishful thinking but if I could get one wish…it would be to be with you again when we are both sure of what we want and can give our all. So I can show and give you the love and support you deserve. But for now, it’s farewell.
Don’t get hurt…stay healthy. I will always be putting positive vibes out into the universe for you.

I love you
Bean