Dear Ben, 
I’m annoyed that it took me so long to notice you. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to fully state how much you mean to me still, but that’s okay. You’ll never read this, and I’m glad. 
You were the best thing to ever happen tome and I hate that; it fits into the overused quote: ‘right person, wrong time.’ I get what they meant by that now.
Even though I am the one that initiated this break, I’m still upset about it. To tell you the truth, I was worried that I was going to hurt you so I ended things before I could. That was dumb. I am dumb for that. The craziest part is that you don’t hate me. And I would do anything to see you over coffee.