Dear D,
I want you to know, I didn’t give up on us, you did. You were my first boyfriend, my first love, the first person who I ever really opened up too. I let you see into my soul, all the things that I regret, my hopes, my dreams, and even my failures. I told you I was the one who would sabotage relationships before it went on even further, and I tried to sabotage our relationship a couple times but you didn’t let me. The reason we broke up was because I successfully managed to sabotage our relationship, without even trying. It’s not my fault though, you helped me sabotage our own relationship. You didn’t like how close we were getting and it scared you. You gave up on us before we could try saving it. I didn’t give up on this relationship, I saw a future with you. I may have tried to sabotage us a lot, but in the end I knew you were one of my soul mates. I don’t believe that there’s only one soul mate for everyone. We’re always going to find “the one” in different people. I wrote you a letter today and in that letter I finally gave up on us. If you read in between the lines, it seems like I want you back, but if you read even closer that’s my way of letting you go. You broke up with me one week ago, am I still hurting? Yes, but it’s not the end of the world for me. It sucked, but I will always care deeply for you and you made me realize you walked out of my life, you missed out on one of the best people and that’s your fault and I’m not going to let you destroy me. I don’t want to find another boyfriend like you, I want someone who isn’t afraid to show they love me. One who isn’t afraid to tell me that I’m not pretty, I’m beautiful. So thank you for showing me what I need. I’m not ready to start a new relationship, I need to find myself and love myself first. So thank you for everything you did. I want to be friends still, but if you don’t, that’s fine. I hope you realize that you’re never going to be happy, not until you can love yourself. I want to end this letter by letting you know, I wasn’t the one to ruin our relationship, you did. We were stuck in a rut, we weren’t growing, but if you had given me the chance I would have grown. We probably would have broken up eventually though, you weren’t with me because you loved me, you were with me to be in a relationship. I never needed you to validate my self-worth, it’s just nice to hear your “boyfriend” compliment you. I hope you find someone who makes you feel head over heels in love, but I also hope you realize you made the biggest mistake of your life by not giving us a chance.
Sincerely
Not your damsel in distress