Dear J,
When i first met you i didn’t think anything more of you then look at this guy working the drive thru. You would always tell me to have a blessed day and to drive safe which you more than likely told every person that came by. The night my night changed was the night that my cousin took me with her to the car wash and we hung out with everyone. You gave me your phone and i put my snapchat user name in and that’s when everything changed. you would snapchat me on a regular and i would do the same. Then the first night we decided to hang out it was so fun and amazing. I don’t know why i’m saying this but you made me feel this feeling of where i could escape from reality for a while. You became the one thing that was good in my life. The one thing that ruined it was the fact that you decided to get back with your ex. you led me to believe that we could have had something. i never showed my feelings to you but the one night i did everything was all messed up. For my birthday party i was so drunk but the one thing i told you was that i wasn’t going to wait forever and that you had to make a choice not at that moment but soon. The one night, well the last night that we talk about everything and you made your choice. You chose her. i’m not mad or sad. you made a choice to make yourself happy and there is nothing else that i want to see besides your happiness. You tell me you are just okay and i lie and say i’m fine. It’s just hard to see someone you love be with another person. it’s hard to keep moving forward when every once in awhile i just have images of what we would be like together. I wish we didn’t live in such a small town because i can’t stand seeing you every time i drive through town or when i decide to stay out late. You just come up to me like everything is okay your warm hug you give me just makes me miss you so much more. I just want to know do i ever cross your mind. do you ever think about me. I hope you miss me and realize that I was a good choice. I was there with you through your problems and I helped you in rough times. I let you know that you could trust me. the only thing i keep asking myself is why? Why do i keep wanting you back? Why do i care for you so much? I just want you off my mind i want you out of my life. The more i think about things the harder it is to stay away. You are with her not with me, You love her you don’t love me. I just can’t get it. I don’t show i care I don’t tell anyone that i care you are like my secret. The one thing I do miss is that you would listen to me complain, you would be there when no one else was there for me. I miss you but now it’s time i let you go. I need to move forward. I Love You so much but I need you out of my life i need you to please not bother me anymore , Please don’t tell me you love me, Please just don’t message me again. Move of with your life, love your girlfriend , love you baby girl, love yourself but please just don’t tell me you love me ever again because I am not the one for you and I don’t think i ever will be. Have a good life. I hope one day in the future we can come across each other and see how well we are doing but for now have a good life and move foward Juan. Love life, Love Yourself.
Much love,
Jay G.