You know, I never thought it would be like this. I thought we were going to pursue our dreams. Get married. Start a family. But it didn’t turn out that way. But I never stopped loving you. At a young age, I gave you my heart; and you’re still giving it back in pieces. At first I blamed you as being the reason why it didn’t work, the reason why it all ended because I thought you gave up on us, on our promise. Until with new eyes, I assessed our relationship. I was the reason why we didn’t work. I was the reason why it all ended. You did nothing but care for me and give me chance after chance. I always put you off as the side when you should have been my main course. I’m sorry I didn’t love you properly. And I will forever regret how I treated you. There are so many things I wish I could tell you. I wish I could tell you that I finally got that bartending job that I wanted or that I finally am moving out of my house filled with crazy roommates. I want to know how your sisters pregnancy is going and if you finally got that pet duck that I thought you were crazy to want. I miss listening to you sing even when we were in public. I miss you opening doors for me and always ringing my door bell. I miss kissing you. I miss my sleepy spot. I just want to talk to you, but I realize that it is my fault that I don’t have that opportunity. I truly didn’t realize what I had until it was gone. It wasn’t until I laid awake all night sick to my stomach after we got into a big fight that I realized I was going to actually lose you. I took you for granted because you let me, and honestly I’m glad you finally stood up for yourself. I didn’t truly enjoy every moment I had with you, mostly because I thought I had a thousand more. Sitting here now though I realize that you deserve the world. You will make a girl the happiest person in the world, you will treat her like she put the stars in the sky. And she will treat you the same. I truly wish the best for you because you deserve it. I’m just sorry it couldn’t be me.
I’m sorry I didn’t love you properly