I dealt with so much, I forgave endlessly, I tried so hard to keep everything held together knowing none of it was supposed to happen. You were my best friend, the one I told everything to, the person I looked forward to having a life with. I built a filter over everything that was happening so I didn’t have to face reality. We were on two different planets with no way to connect. I was so wrapped up with making my future goals that I didn’t stop to realize how wrong it was. I will always hold a place in my heart for you but I wish I had been strong enough to leave sooner. I lied to make myself look better when in reality your actions never changed, only how I saw them did. You aren’t lost, you aren’t uneducated, or unmotivated. You are simply happy with how your life is and have no intention to change.. I thank you for showing me what I truly want and expect out of a man, and how I need to change for the better; thank you for the 3+ years we spent together and the memories we have. I apologise for trying to change the person you are for the future I want. Live free, party on and stay high.