The pain does not go. It just does not go. I would not want to be back with you, and yet the pain is still there. I can t trust any guy anymore. I have been breaking off each relationship I started. I wonder why you did this. You said you loved me, so why did you do this? There are days where I think about the happiness I felt when I was offered a permanent job here. If I had known what you did, I would not be here today. You let me make life choices without telling me the truth about you. I just dont know why you lied so much to me.