I’m sorry. I don’t know what I was thinking. Honestly, I wasn’t thinking. I wasn’t thinking about how selfish I was, how hurt I was to the point that I was hurting others around me. Including the one I love most. “Hurt people hurt people.” I suppose we found out the truth of that the hard way. I’m still hurting because I miss you. I know what would make me feel better. You.
You’ve always been a helpful, generous, fun loving guy who sticks to his word and gives people another chance. I need him right now. The man that agreed to meet one last time and have a final conversation with one another. Where is he? Where is the man that agreed to give me another chance? The man I fell for who would sit and talk with me for hours to come up with a solution to the issues we were facing. The man whose intellect and patience I fell for. The man who could make me feel better just by walking through the door and challenged me to be a better person, daily. I thought I did the same for you.
Please tell me that the man I fell for hasn’t disappeared. The one willing to walk through hell and back for our love. The man I fell for that still sees the good in people, loves unconditionally, and is willing to give me, give us, another chance. I miss you. Do you ever think about me? Do you ever miss me at all? Does the man still exist, the one who would agree to one conversation with me?
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Your letter made me smile. Being one of those people, I know they almost certainly are still the person you remember them as. Emotions can be fickle. Pain can change many things about a person, but it won’t change the nature of a good and loving heart. You might want to contact them though, especially if they think being out of your life is making you happy.
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I’ve tried. He wants nothing to do with me, and has blocked my number, email, everything. He won’t talk to me, or even read this letter (though I did put in his email for him to get the link to it in the off chance he will read it someday.)
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I know it sounds rather hokey in this day, but…snail mail? Also, depending on how bad they’re hurt, they may just need more time to cool off and gather their thoughts.
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He tore up the last thing I sent him thru snail mail…
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I’m sorry, but the only thing left to do is keep going with your life. You can’t wait for something that may not come. It’s up to you if you want to hold out hope for a later time, but, maybe for now, they need time away from you to heal. Maybe there will be a time they come back, but you can’t wait for ‘maybe’.
If they really mean something to you, show it the best way you can right now. Give them their time in peace. It’s also a good time to work on yourself, and see if you can identify actions and behaviors that may have been destructive to your bond.I hope you both can heal. Hopefully you’ll get a sign from them.
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“Hurt people, hurt people”.. reminds me so much of someone I used to know.. loved him more than anything in the world
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