First off i need to say that I am truly heartbroken. This is my fault and i know this. You gave me so many opportunities and i took them for granted and that is something I can’t change. It’s only been a week and i think I’ve cried more than I have in years. We had something amazing and because of my actions it turned to something that you started to resent. That is something that will haunt me for a long time. You are such a loving and kindhearted person and for you to feel the way you did at the end and still probably do literally breaks my heart because that is the last thing i ever wanted to do was hurt you. But I did and now there is nothing I can do. You said you need time and i intend to give that to you. You said there is a chance you might come back and that is something i hope will happen but I understand. At least i still get to see you. You said we are still friends and the only thing that has changed is that we are not together but i don’t know how things haven’t. It physically hurts to be around you knowing that your hurting. At the same time though not seeing you at all would literally break me. There is a hole in my heart that is going to be there for a very long time. I love you and i regret that i didn’t tell you that more often and show you what i felt. I have never met someone so loving, and kind, and selfless. You do so much for everyone and you just needed someone to do the same for you and i failed at that and that is going to take a long time to forgive myself for. In the meantime I’m going to work on myself because there is no hope for us if i can’t be better for me. I’m not changing because that’s that you need…..I’m doing this for me. This hurts so much and right now its terrible but it will get better. I will be ok and i know you will be to. I just hope eventually we can talk about this and see if we end up ok. For now all I can say is that i am sorry and i understand. Everything is not ok right now but I understand…….