I wish I would taken my time when you first asked me to become your girlfriend. I was hurt by my past and wasn’t completely ready to start all over again. I took this chance because like many would experience, if you say no at this moment, you never know if that person could had been the one. I took a risk knowing I was heartbroken and risked getting my heart broken all over again. When I was by your side as friends, I was happy. I’ll look forward on seeing you at the bar and texting you from morning to night. A day we wouldn’t text, my day was incomplete. You became my best friend.
Whenever there is a full moon, I go back to the day when we first kissed. There was a full moon when you first confessed yourself to me. You made me feel beautiful. You made me feel wanted and you made me feel like I was the only girl in the world. Your kisses were sincere. Whenever I’ll wrapped myself in your arms, your arms felt like home.
Sadly, I was going through personal, family problems at the time we began dating. Until this day, I’m going through personal problems and you started going through personal problems as well. And well another thing that impacted our relationship was my jealousy. My jealousy gained through my past. I was afraid. I was insecure. I trust you with all my heart, I just didn’t trust the universe because previously the best moments were always taken from me and I was afraid to see anybody around you and I’m sorry I came out that way. I tried my best, but seeing how wonderful of a boy you were, any girl could had easily fallen for you like the way I did. And I was just terrified. Sadly, I failed to realize at the end you always chose me and only wanted me.
I know the way we ended was hard for you. You needed to do what you needed to do, I just wish you would had done things the right way, not through a text. I know it was your first relationship. It was our first serious relationship, many would believe this is childish…but I know you were just hurt and you always had a hard time expressing yourself. So I don’t blame you completely for ending things but at the same time, it’s been so hard for me. I love you with all my heart till this day, I’ll do anything to go back and work on myself. Honestly, I know I took our time for granted. I always felt you were going to let everything slide. But we were both at fault for many things as well. We were both inexperience and it’s something we could still work on.
If I had one last wish, it would be to be wrapped around your arms. It’s too early to tell, there’s still some hope in me that you’ll come back. Everything happens for a reason, and what’s meant to be will find its way. I wish I didn’t have so many questions. I wish I could had acted differently. I don’t want to take you as a lesson learned, I still believe you’re the one for me. But only time will tell. You were the right person who came in the wrong time. You were my only exception. I hope we can meet again, I can’t say goodbye. I’ll just see you later. I miss you so much. But I know I will soon need to let go if I don’t hear from you anymore. I still have a little hope.