Hey… I found this funny site… Just want to get things off my chest one more time. You saw me when i shouted fuck because i hit my fingers on a long door handle at the bus station. I didn’t know we were on the same bus till i got off my stop and i saw you. While looking for my aikido class you helped me and we got close real fast.

You record a voice note about your first impression of me… And kept it with you without me listening to it.. In one magical month we went out to a gala, we kissed, and we cuddled in an abandoned classroom. It was all perfect. I remember every moment we had.. the slow kisses, loud laughs, and long hugs. Summer was about to begin and you had to go back to your country. I was okay with it. You said you’d come back so it was fine. You spent your last day with close friends and me. I saw them cry when you were telling them goodbye. I was fine because i knew you were coming back…

We had our last kiss behind your university and then remember when you forgot your phone in your friend’s car? You were panicking and i told you to just call it… Hehe.. What an idiot xD.. You dropped me off my station and waited for my bus… We hugged. That was the last time i saw you. I told myself.. 4 months isn’t bad at all. I’ll be busy with work so my mind will be focused on it. We Skyped a lot. Sometimes with good connection, sometimes not. I was happy, you were happy. After 2 months you said that we were going too fast in our relationship… We were planning so far ahead and making up expectations… So you told me that we should go slow.. And i was fine with it. But the next day… When we started to start over again… You told me you’re not able to study here anymore… The person who’s paying for your education can’t pay for you since tuition fees are getting high…

I froze. I took a snapshot of our chat and sent it to my best friend.. She told me to calm down… She knows that I’ll break. I called you on Skype and asked about it… You said you tried convincing the person who pays for your tuition fees… But no.. There wasn’t a chance at all… I was ready to do long distance… I’d do it because i love you. You didn’t want to… Because you saw how hard it was for me to wait… You told me there were guys out there that was going to be better than you.. I cried on my balcony floor begging you to stop saying it. I know it hurts you so much too but i couldn’t hear it from your voice. I cried in front of my mother and she scolded me for making future expectations with you…

After that we stopped talking for 6 days. I talked to my friends and they helped me get through my heartbreak. When we started chatting again i felt closure. I felt so happy… You said you’d come back to do something with your passport… But you ain’t going to anymore.. I still haven’t listened to that voice note you told me… To this day.. I’m still waiting for your voicenote.. Thinking and imagining what was going through your mind when you first met me… Maybe i will listen to it.. Maybe i won’t.. I might cry or i might get angry.. I don’t know… So yeah… I wonder what you’re doing now…