I know you might not ever see this or care to see this but i just need to let this out i cant hold it in. But you changed a week after and my mind went damn here we go again, you made me fall for you like a lost puppy then you crushed my heart like it was nothing. You told me you love me but all that meant was you wanted to fuck me. i kept going back too you cause i thought i can fix us and it was all true, you filled my mind with all these lies that made me confused then a week later it was back to baby i love you and not once did i ever give up on you. you kept changing up on me like you have moods, and fuck no your not getting nudes….you didnt know about all the times i would fight for you i went to a friend and she told me ma i gotta tell you hes fucking with your head i didnt want to believe her so i said no he loves me im gonna keep trying. but the same week we started fighting, i asked you what we were you kept telling me theres an us but you didn’t know for sure. Your feelings were so mixed up fuck why cant you just act more mature, the way you held me when i was cold or when i needed you the way you told me ‘ im not gonna hurt you’ but here i am back at relationship ‘phase two’ i wish this pain would all go away i never should of trusted you your stuck to my heart like super glue everywere i look something reminds me of youand now all im thinking out of everyone i knew it was you. but now i gotta be strong i gotta pick my head up and move on i need to stop replaying that stupid love song, im gonna be ok with out you babe, you knew the things i went through you taught me not to fall hard so fast that was a blessing. i gotta pay for the concequences iv’e made. and i gotta fix another mistake ive made.
i need to let go