You asked me if I was okay. You know I’m not but. The reason is… People leave me all the time. But me and him. Were close. Talked every day and night and….His birthday we even went to the movies….one day he….left……and i know I shouldn’t care. At all. But I do. I know how it feels to be alone. You could be around your friends and family and feel like nobody’s there…
This guy took a big part of me… Honestly when he left I didn’t know I depended on him as much as I did. Before he left I remember telling myself. I love him. That’s my best friend. When he left. I hated everything about me and felt like I was the reason he left…Seeing him the other day reminded me that sometimes moving on is the only way you really understand who you are. For months I was all about him. Always. But then he left and. It was just me. I’ve never loved anything about myself and I’m very insecure…he was there. When I lost my best friend in a car accident..he was there. But when I lay down and cry myself to sleep over him. He’s not…..And I miss him….hell of a lot…sometimes I can’t love my current boyfriend because I still love the boy who left me for her. 😔 His face still clear in my head. He promised he wouldn’t leave me. I believed it..How stupid can I be? To somehow forget to love myself. You claimed you loved me. But it’s been seven months since we’ve talked😭