I know that you don’t think at all about me, so I don’t know why I spend so much of my time with you on my mind. There will never be closure. I’ve come to that realization. And I really need to stop thinking about you. It isn’t a hatred anymore, so that’s progress. I’m not even sure if i could handle a real goodbye, to be honest. You’re not a “what if”. That would mean that we actually had a fighting chance. You’re not “the one that got away”. That would mean that I trusted that the things you said, of us, were true. It’s more along the lines of “unfinished business”…That I was never able to say my truth and wanted to respect the boundaries of ending things. And now it’s too late. Too much time has passed. We’re leading new lives, with new people in our lives, and are on different paths. All around, I am happy with the way my life is going. I am sure you are too. Maybe some people are just meant to come into our lives to teach us what we actually need, to test our values, and show us what standards we actually need to be setting. You weren’t good for me. I knew that in my heart, and tripped all over it with pretty words being tossed at it. People can say whatever they want when there isn’t any real commitment involved and no way of taking real action. I guess thats why some people enjoy LDR. It’s so easy to string along pretty words that you don’t even mean. Thanks for making me feel special for a brief moment. Too bad it isn’t so special when you spread it around to everyone. I guess that’s the closure I have to settle with. Something completely concocted, but more than likely true. Could I even trust the truth coming from you? Probably not. Would it make a difference? I don’t know. I don’t handle betrayal well…But I know that I’m coming out of it as a much stronger person. And I guess I can thank you for giving me the tools.
the real closure