Today is the 20th of April. I’m still in despair. I don’t know what to do. I know I already lost you, but still I’m holding on. I’m holding on on something. Perhaps that something is that chance or hope that you might come back to me. Now I’m back here to this random website doing random letters for the 2nd time. I know this is not the best solution for my problem. But at least I know I can take something off my chest here. On the 1st letter I told everyone how much I regret about losing you. Now I want to say to everyone how lucky I am or I was to have you. Having you was an amazing experience, having you brought amazing meaning and color to my life. In times that I was so low and lost, you were there to lift me up. But now you’re gone. In an instant, all our happy memories are gone, perhaps not really in an instant because I know you gave me enough time to prove myself to you. Enough time to correct my mistakes. But again like what I’ve said in my 1st letter on this website, I was too dumb and foolish to realize it all. Anyhow, I just want to tell you again that I love you so much. I love you so much that I would even trade this day from the day that I first met you. I would want to correct all the mistakes that I’ve done. I really do love you so much. I know you are happy know. I have no bad intention. This site is asking my ex’s email I’m not even sure if I have provided it because I’m too drunk too remember. But I’m not too drunk to know that I still love you. Anyhow, If by any chance this random letter from this random site reaches you, I just want you to know that I really love you. Damn I want to see you. Damn I want to hold you. Damn I want to tell you how much i Love you.