I doubt that you’re ever going to find this so I guess I’ll just say everything. First of all, you we’re probably the closest thing to a perfect girl. If you ever had the chance to read my notes on my phone, you’d see exactly why. Who would’ve known how much we had in common and how quickly we sparked. We talked everyday from day to night. I know how cliché this may sound, but you were honestly the first thought I had in the morning to the last one I had right before I sleep. Even then you’d appear in my dreams. We supported each other, even at the toughest times. Every time that we talked, we felt like we could conquer the world. You make me try new things and make me feel less afraid of things. I tried my best to keep things going by trying to plan different activities that we could do together like Six Flags, museums, and escape rooms, so that we things won’t seem so boring at times. I know that this may sound crazy, but I’ve completely fell for you. Everything that you say, everything that you do, everything that you are. Everyday there’s a moment that I’m doing something and everything I wish you were here with me to experience it. Alice, babygirl, you are a princess and an angel in disguise. I can’t express that enough. I just want to know what happened between us.
Something happened and we became more and more distant from each other. I didn’t want to constantly hit you up because everyone hates that feeling of feeling annoying towards something. Then out of nowhere I was dropped. I don’t understand what I did wrong for you to stop talking to me. I loved you the best that I could. What I could do I did and what I couldn’t do, I tried. But it feels like even that wasn’t enough. I tried to text you every now and then to see if the spark was still there, but I didn’t get any response. I have no idea what I did. I still have your notifications on for instagram because I still want to know what is going on in your life.
I know that we don’t talk anymore but I’m always going to be cheering you on. I’m always going to want to know how your life is going and that if you ever need anyone want to talk to, I will always be here for you. It hurts like hell when you feel like you’re losing a bond with somebody you wanted forever with. Alice, you’re still amazing in my eyes and no one will every change my mind about that because I know who you really are. Everything that I said and everything that I did for you was real. Whenever I see your name pop up somewhere, all the memories come back to me like a flood. It’s like the world stops and all I could think about is what we had. Won’t talk anymore so all that I have left of you are memories.
Alice, princess, I wish you nothing but the best in the near and far future. You re truly one of a kind and don’t ever forget that. You deserve the world and don’t let anyone let you forget that. Even though we’re basically strangers with memories. I just want to see you succeed in life and become an amazing women that I know that you will be. You’re one of the strongest people I know. I know this just sounds way too cliché but I want to see you happy, even if it’s not with me. Don’t ever let someone put you down because you’re better than you think you are.
I guess now I can put my mind at rest to think that there’s a chance that you could see this and get in tough with me. If you are reading this Alice, I’d more than happy to tell you so much more. I’m always cheering you on A.A.L.G. no matter what you are doing. Words alone cannot express how much I miss and car for you. You’re definitely one of a kind. Keep fighting through everything, you got this.