I miss you, i miss you more and more everyday and I can’t stop thinking about you. You moved on and hey I mean you deserved it because I didn’t treat you the best, I always wished for happiness, and then as if it was fate i met you. Our love was unexpected I wasn’t planning on having a relationship but we dated. You know at first I didn’t even pay attention to you but all of a sudden I did. I asked a classmate for your insta and he gave it to me and at well i was to shy to text you but I followed you. Once you posted something on your story and it was funny and I replied to it and it all started there. We started texting and we literally had the same sense of humor it was absolutely great. You were funny and good looking and I fell fast. I fell hard and fast, it’s been 9 months since we broke up Jason and I can’t move on like you did.

I wish I showed you enough love. I wish you truly knew how much I loved you mi vida. You made me the happiest and I don’t think you realized that. I’m truly sorry for not showing you enough love, i’m sorry that i didn’t try harder, i’m sorry that i couldn’t tell you the truth. I didn’t break up with you because i stopped loving you, you see before, depression took over, really hard, I was at my lowest and eventually I got better but that’s the thing with depression, it’s never really gone, it’s always there waiting to consume you and drain your happy thoughts. And that’s what happened, you didn’t realize no you didn’t. But you were falling out of love with me and I was falling back into that hole of depression. Why didn’t you fight? for us? What did I do wrong Jason? but most of all, why didn’t I fight ? I let you go even when I loved you with all my heart. I understand tho, I put you in a toxic place right, I broke your trust and my mental illness was never an excuse for breaking up with you but you didn’t even know.

You thought I stopped loving you. How could I Jason? How could I ever stop loving you when you were the absolute best and all I wanted was you. But I started believing you didn’t love me and that I didn’t deserve you nor did i deserve to be happy I was right. I just laid there for day, laid on ,my bed, didn’t want to get up, didn’t want to shower or eat. I lost you and I was losing myself how come you didn’t see that. And the day we broke up you said that things would have been different if you chose her. That hurt me, my heart man, I cried for days and days and 9 months later I still cry at night. I wanted you happy and so i texted her. I texted her and I told her that she deserved you and then she said you texted her and that you guys were taking it slow.. you didn’t even wait Jason you just texted her and all those months we dated you just threw them out as if it meant nothing.

I went to a lot of parties, I started drinking and I missed you and loved you while you loved her. But no matter what I’ll always wait for you, I’ll always be here. You’re happy without me.. and that hurts. I honestly wish you the best of all this world could give. It hurts so much that I walk past you now as if you were a stranger. I wish I fought harder, i wish i never let you go. It’d be us against the world. Never planned that one day I’d be losing you. I think the last time my mom truly hugged me was in elementary school. But when we broke up, she held me.. I cried and cried because I lost the only person who actually loved me and helped me find my peace. You were my home Jason, home was wherever you were, me and you love.

I’m so sorry Jason. I’m so sorry for everything I did, for hurting you. You are my soulmate. I’ll always love you, I’ll always be in love with you. You hold a special place in my heart. Thank you for the memories. Thank you for making me happy. Thank you for loving me. Be happy my love. Te amo. I’ll wait for you. I’ll love you forever and always amor. forever and always :(.