Dear Love

We have been together for almost three years now. Next week would have been four. We have been through so much together and I do not know where to begin. We have had a lot of ups and downs together, but lately everything just seemed off. I know that you love me, but you did not know the right things to say. It was the simple things that I loved about you, but for some reason, you stopped doing all of those because maybe you forgot? Maybe because we have been together for so long that you thought that it did not matter. We were high school sweet hearts and you were the sweetest guy when we got together. After you came from bootcamp, I noticed a lot has changed. You stopped being lovey towards me, you stopped posting about me. You started drinking more and acting stupid more. I stayed because I loved you, but when you messed up the first time, I wish I had left to save all the pain I felt. 

You completely broke me when I found out that you messaged the girl you liked back in highschool when we were still together. You completely broke me when you were drunk and decided to say things to my best friend at the time. I look int he mirror and I see someone broken because of your actions towards me. I will never understand what I did wrong to deserve that, but I wish you fought for me. I wish you changed. And I wish I wasn’t so naive. Were both young and I was taking everything seriously. There is still room for improvement so I hope that our time apart brings us back together in the future. I want what is best for you, and if its not with me, that is fine. And if it is, thats great too, I hope it is with me. We have a lot of growing to do and figuring out what we truly want. I miss you. I love you, always. I really hope for the best.I accept your apologies, but things need to change. 

I will miss your family and I will miss you coming over to my place. I will miss our adventures. I will miss joking around with you and sneaking over at your place. I will miss holding your hand and giving you kisses. I will miss having the scent of your cologne on me after we hug. I will miss everything about you. The way you made me feel when we started dating, the way you get nervous, the way your smile forms. And I will miss hearing you say, “I love you.” You were a big part of my life, and I will always love you. I am sorry things are the way they are, but I am starting to realize that thats part of growing up. Maybe well be more mature about it instead of living in our own little fantasy, but Ill miss doing that with you too… I had an amazing 4 years with you. I hope to see you again and to hopefully start over one day.


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