Dear sunshine,
It’s been 3 years since we last spoke, 3 years since you ignored my last messages to you & 4 years since I’ve seen you. I recently found out you finally asked her to marry you. It’s been a journey, huh? You hurt multiple girls, including me for your selfish reasons,  but at the end of the day no one could replace her. You lifted me up but didn’t catch my fall. It doesn’t hurt anymore, but unfortunately those questions you never answered still linger.

There are questions that haven’t & may never be answered. I still ask myself “why me?”, I wasn’t a bad person. I was actually good, even you admitted it! You stole the best part of me, my innocence! I had pure intentions & was an actual good person. You destroyed that part of me. It took me so long to trust & love again. Also, what would have happened if your now future wife & I would have never found out about each other? Would you have kept living a double life? I guess it doesn’t matter anymore & I am losing track of the point of this letter. But I can’t shake the fact that when I confronted you, you weren’t man enough to apologize or say anything about the pain you had caused. Your mother had to step in & apologize for you. I wasted a year with you, thinking we had a future.

I honestly don’t wish you anything bad. I wish you happiness. I hope you have changed. I hope you are sorry for all the pain you’ve caused, even if you won’t or can’t admit it. I hope you have grown into the person I thought & hoped you’d be.      

I am finally freed from you & that part you stole, is slowly regenerating. I finally let go of all the sadness & I am finally embracing the real me. I am in a better place, physically, mentally & career wise. I am slowly getting there. 

This is the last time I mention you. The last time I go back to tag dark part of my life. That part where o felt worthless & nothing else mattered, but you. Thai is my goodbye & the words I never got to tell you. It’s time to let go of you. Time for me to be happy again without ghosts ruining it. Maybe this letter will get to you one day, maybe not. Maybe in another life our paths may cross again, maybe not. 
Goodbye sunshine