Dear you,
It’s funny how for years I challenged your idea of soulmates. It’s funny how after years you felt more like a friend and it wasn’t fair on you so I had to go. Despite this, I still have this urge to protect you and care for you but I can’t. Through my own actions that option isn’t out there for me anymore.

For years I longed for unconditional love, love that made me feel protected, love that despite all my flaws would conquer over all. You had that. Your big heart, glimmering eyes and laugh that could lighten up a whole room in a funeral. You had all that. Why did we have to be on different paths? Why did we have to drift apart?

I lingered and wrecked my brain thinking of this. Why meet someone so perfectly aligned for you for it not to work? Despite your beliefs I tried, I tried so hard to make it work but I was losing myself in the process. We’re not meant to be the end game but we were meant to meet.

You’re my person, my soulmate. My first independence, my first unconditional love. I’m sorry we didn’t work, I’m sorry I let you down, I’m sorry I couldn’t protect you and love you forever like we both wanted. Despite this I wish you happiness, love and bliss. I will stand and watch you flourish from afar. I will watch you grow and reach the potential that I know you’re capable of. I’m sorry I let you down, but I’m not sorry we experienced us. Whilst we are not endgame I will always look back at smile at all the laughs, experiences and feel
of protection. Whilst it is not enough I will always love you from afar. As I stand here alone years later I can admit, you shaped me and made me who I am today. You are the biggest influence of my life. Whilst we didn’t end together I know our bond is strong, perhaps too strong.

I can now look back and agree with you, we are soulmates but there’s an exception. Maybe soulmates are not meant to end together. Maybe soulmates are just too powerful for the world to handle. Maybe our fate just didn’t want that for us. All I know is whilst I’m not physically there I will always be your biggest fan. I know I’ll find someone and you will too. I know we’ll both have beautiful families and the lives we’ve always longed for. I know that I’m not there, but I need you to know I’ll love you forever from afar.

Love
L.B