I wish I knew then what I know now

I wish I knew then what I know now

I wish I knew then what I know now

I’ve been thinking about you lately and wondering how things would be if we ever spoke again. 

Reflecting back on the past few years, I look back with a bittersweet feeling. While we had good memories, I remember them less in comparison to how we were before the end.

You gave into your addiction, lied, cheated and emotionally abused me to the point where I started believing every negative you said about me to be true.

After I walked away from you I promised to respect myself and not give you another opportunity to disrespect me.

Now that time has passed, I learned alot about myself on my healing journey. It turns out we were never a good fit from the start. I loved you so much that I lost myself in the process to become who you wanted me to be. I didnt respect myself then, and you took advantage of that. The whole relationship was one sided, me doing everything for you. And everything you did for me was always half assed or the effort didnt exist.

Even despite all of this I’m still grateful. For all the lessons good and bad. Ive learned to love myself again. I am not worthless like you made me feel or made me out to be. I I so proud of who I am now and Im excited to see where life will take me.

As for my hope for you, I hope you find your happiness – whatever that means to you.


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