Dear P,
It’s been a while since we last talked. The way things ended was a shock to both of us. I want you to know that I am no longer mad at you. Who could be? You were following your heart, even though it broke mine. I met someone, I’m not sure if I’ll ever love him as much as I loved you, but he makes me smile.

We were just kids when we met (17). A few months ago, I was finally able to block your number and all social media. Have you tried contacting me since then? I might never know. You were my first love P, that can’t and never will change. I know you’ll never read this but it’s a way for me to say goodbye, for good. I am no longer in love with you but I think I will always strongly care for you.

I’m happy. Yes, I still think of you and yes, I still miss you. But I can finally say I’m over you and mean it. It’s been 9 months since we broke up and 2 1/2 months since we’ve last spoken. You brought love and happiness into my life. Hell, you taught me what love really was. I’m not sure if I’ll ever see you again. I’ll (hopefully) be attending college in the fall. 

I kept all our pictures and memories. They’re in a box under my bed. When we broke up, I was so scared of being alone. I was scared of the fact that I’ll never feel your lips on mine again. It took me many sleepless nights to get over you. You were good to me P. And I love you for that. 

You’re still my ride or die, my best friend. But I think we’re better left in the past. I’m going across the country for school. I’m finally getting the fresh start I’ve always wanted. I like to think that sometimes you think about me as well. But hey? I hope you’ve found love and happiness. 

Thank you for everything. Goodbye.

Sincerely, 
Your first everything