It’s been 3 months and you still haven’t said a word to me. Our anniversary is coming up soon and I still feel the same heartache I did before. I hurt you so bad and so much that I don’t deserve your forgiveness. It scares me how much I didn’t see the exact damage I was causing so I could have stopped before you stopped loving me. Since our break up, I haven’t wished harm on you or any kind of karma. I hope you are as happy as your pictures show you are. But I wish I was the one to put that beautiful smile on your face. For awhile I thought I didn’t need you. But I honestly do. Especially now since my moms going through major surgery. I never needed anyone as much as I need you now and to think you might not even care about me, or even think about me makes my heart ache. I have forgiven you for all that you’ve done in the past. And I never plan on looking back or even talking about it. Love is real and losing someone you’ll love forever is literal hell.