“You know that place between sleep and awake?
That place where you can still remember dreaming?
That’s where I will always love you
That’s where I’ll be waiting.”
I never thought we’d end up here. Our relationship was unconventional, yes, but it was beautiful and our own version of perfect.
We saved each other, and I still remember the day you called me your angel. You broke down my walls and said that there was no reason to be afraid, that I could trust you. I remember the night I broke down in tears and said that I loved you too.
Our love of Disney became a huge part of our relationship. I was your Minnie and you were my Mickey. Do you still think about wanting me to ride that rollercoaster that terrified me?
I miss telling each other to be safe, and our mutual answer of “Always”.
You said I was always first for you. That your mind and body needed me. Then something happened and you started pulling away. I tried so hard to hold on to you, and for a while I thought we were slowly getting back to us.
You left. You never even said goodbye.
I told you out of spite that I wanted everything back that I had ever given you. In all honesty, I just wanted to wrap myself up in that blanket and sleep my pain away. I’m glad I changed my mind because I gave you those things out of love, and I hope you remember that.
I know you’re with someone new, but I still pray it’s you every time my phone goes off. I still love you, and I know it won’t happen, but I’m praying that you’ll remember I’m your angel and come back to me.
Sweet Dreams when you sleep, my love. I miss you.