To the girl I loved with all my heart,
This is a letter to say I’m sorry. I know we have tried over and over to work things out and it never happened, I blame myself. You were the love of my life and I never truly showed you and I’m sorry. I had so many things running through my head when you weren’t talking to me that day and it’s my fault. I also lied to you. I’m not ok. I’m not happy without you. The thought runs through my head all the time that I hurt you so bad and I’m sorry. I was scared. To get that call from you about that guy hurt me because I was pissed. I don’t even feel like I deserved to hold you and love you and he tried to. I was angry. To get that call from you saying you ran off the road I was ready to come wherever you were because I had to make sure you were ok. We talk about what our friends and family say and I was scared. I told you I cried at the end of the office and here is why. Jim was talking about love and it all made sense to me. “I don’t know what you want me to tell you, man. All I know is that every time I’ve been faced with a tough decision, there’s only one thing that outweighs every other concern — one thing that will make you give up on everything you thought you knew. Every instinct. Every rational calculation” Dewight ask if it some sort of a virus and this is Jims response, “Love… Dwight, listen, no matter happens, you gotta forget about all the other stuff. You gotta forget about logic and fear and doubt. You just gotta do everything you can do get to the one woman who’s going to make all this worth it. At the end of the day, you gotta jump. You love Angela, Dwight. I think you always have.” it all makes sense now. Our love is crazy always has been and I’m sorry I never truly saw that. I truly did and truly do still love you. I hope you have a great life keep doing amazing things I know you will.
I will always love you,