I miss you. I mean I guess I can start there. It’s been so hard moving on without you in my life. You wanted to be part of the next chapter so badly but couldn’t seem to care enough about me. I always thought it was gonna be you. I thought we would one day have our dream wedding at the beach and then make our children some super awesome athletes just like we are. I never thought of a future without you. Things were going great sure we got into some small arguments but overall everything was wonderful. Never had I connected with someone like I did with you. It felt like something you only see in the movies. We had our special night at this beautiful banquet hall. I was dressed in a gorgeous dress and you looked amazingly handsome in your tuxedo. The perfect night with the perfect man. It’s funny how quickly things can change. One second everything is going great and then the next it turns upside down. I discovered this whole new side of you that I never knew existed you criticized my prior relationships yet you were part of another relationship while being with me. You cheated. You lied to my face and got frustrated at me when I questioned your intentions with her. I knew she liked you and you just got so angry and called me stupid for believing that. When I discovered the truth you denied. Honestly all I wanted was the truth even if I hurt I wanted you to be the strong man I always thought you were and tell me there was somethig going on but you couldn’t. Just friends you say. Just friends that kiss each other and spend nights together. Just friends nothing more. I wish it were true and sometimes I wish I never found about her but the fact that you had to hide her shows something about you. You couldn’t tell her how serious we were. You never defined any boundaries with your “friend”. It’s normal to have female friends just not friends that kiss you and lick your face and not friends you sneak around with. I wish you would have chose me because I miss you and I love you and always will. You broke my heart but I still want the best for you even if the best doesn’t involve me in your life. I found guys that respect me more and are honest with me. It’s not the same with them. Yes they’re great but they’re not you. One day I hope you realize you made a mistake. We could have been so happy together. But honestly was all the lies worth losing me? I don’t care what you say I saw the way you looked into my eyes you loved me and I knew it. So everyday when I think about you I know that in the back of your mind you’re thinking about me too. You’ll never forget our magical moments and the moment you realized you ruined things for us. Anyways I hope you’re happy and maybe one day we can become friends again.
I guess I can start with… I miss you