I still think of you from time to time. I forgive you for hurting me. I forgive the both of us for how everything ended. It’s crazy, but there are days when I wish I hear from you. The other day, I heard something funny and I wanted to contact you and tell you all about it. I wish you could have been stronger for us (it’s your loss).
I have never told you this, but you were the first guy that got me thinking about family and settling down and the first guy that I saw and plan my future with. We both shattered each other dreams and hurt each other. Sometimes it still hurts that you have move on so quickly, and I wonder how much of what you said and felt are true. I have implied that I would forget you because you decided you want to be with someone else, but how could I? I thought I could, but I can’t. If I forget you because of bad memories, then I would have to also forget all the good times we had together. For a short time, you made me feel happy like I have never felt before. Sometimes, I miss those times when I had a silly smile or grin on my face because of you. So for that, I thank you and I can’t forget. K, I’m going to stop forgetting you now because that just make me think of you. I don’t hate you. I was mad and disappointed at our situation. I wasn’t mad that you have decided to move on. I want you to be happy and I have never want to stand in your way of finding your happiness. I wish you could have done that without stringing me along. I wish I was stronger to walk away. Thank to you, I have learned a lot more about myself and relationship. I know my worth and I do deserve better.
I hope you’re doing well and wish you all the best.