Who would have thought that meeting you would change my life so completely? How did you manage to do that? I was at my lowest and you were there to pick me up. And you held me. and You held me every time I asked for it, every time I needed it. I didn’t expect that. I never hoped for it. Never thought I deserved it. But you would hold me and tell me I was worth it.
To have such love and care shown to me. That was beyond my imagining. But it became real. You became real. And then you became everything. When I wake in the morning my first thought is of you. I hear your voice calling to me. You call my name so gently and I believe you that I exist and am real.
I think of you all day. each moment I’m not working or having to think about anything I think of you. I remember you holding me. I remember how that felt. I used to count down the hours until I would see you again – and have you hold me again – and have you care for me again.
But that time is over now. There are not enough hours to count. I’m never seeing you again. We have ended – there is no going back.
I miss you so much. I love you so much.