We were so close. I love you so much and it hurts. I want you to marry me, have kids with me, love me and hold me like you did before. I’ve never been treated the way you treated me and I know nobody else will touch me with the same care or make me laugh the same way or have my body fit perfectly into theirs or be able to run my fingers through their hair. I won’t be able to make fun of them. I want to have kids with you, grow old, remove all the shit we went though and all the easy times we had. Remembering when we got arrested together, dealt dope together, grew tougher. I need you so bad I just wish you knew how much.