Sorry for breaking up with you even though I still loved you, that was mean. I hate myself for it every day. I wish I didn’t cause you to cry and scream as I broke your heart and you told me that this is the worst you’ve ever hurt in your entire life, even worse than when your dad died. I wish you hadn’t said that. I haven’t stopped thinking about it and I don’t know if I ever will. I have dreams about you every night and they’re so so sweet. Such sweet innocent dreams consisting of holding hands and cuddling. Sweet kisses and long conversations. That’s what I miss the most about you. I love you Lily and I hope you heal.