Dear Shaun
It’s been over a month since we broke up , we were in a long distance relationship and we talked all the time I’m still hurt and upset at what happened,I didn’t see it coming as I was so in love with you .we dated for 3 months then we called it off because you said you were interested in boys I was upset and cried for a long time then I started to get over you as time passed ,I started to put you behind me but because we were still friends I still kind of liked you I wish I just pushed you completely out of my life but I didn’t and it was toxic ,about a month after that happened we were still talking ,you talked about your life and I tried to help you through your rough times I wanted to be there for you ,you eventually asked me what we were and I didn’t know what to say ,I replied asking what he thinks we are ,he said he wanted to date me again and of course me being the stupid person I am took him back forgetting everything,we went back to the way we use to be ,talking all the time ,sending cute pictures ,things long distance couples do ,then about 2 months after you texted me saying “I’m sorry I’m such a horrible person I’ve done something terrible to you” I asked what it was and I started getting scared ,you said you used me because while we weren’t dating you asked a boy out and you were scared incase he didn’t feel the same way as you ,it broke me hearing you used me to try get over him ,now we are still sort of friends ,you started dating the boy you asked out and you talk about him to me all the time ,you ask me for relationship advice and I help you it hurts me so much hearing this as I still love you ,I wish you understood but I’m scared ,you once said that you need help as your boyfriend had gotten close with his ex and he talks to her instead of talking to you and you were scared incase anything happened it brought back the memories when you hung out with the girl you lost your virginity to ,you talked to her all the time instead of talking to me and now the exact same thing was happening to you ,you hardly ever speak to me now and it breaks my heart ,I’m young and it was a lot to take in as I told you many of my secrets and my friend taking his own life only a few months before this made it even harder to cope with ,I miss you and you probably won’t read this but I love you and I hope one day that youll see why it hurt me so much you broke me and you still have a special place In my heart
My ig is parktiegan just incase you want to talk