365 days, D.

i never meant to fall for you, but i did and i’m glad i did.

i wish i had told you sooner, you meant the world to me and you still do but i know that you don’t feel the same way, i know i let you down. i let you go because i was so afraid to lose you. i made a stupid decision, i chose to let you go. if only i can turn back time, oh God, you have no idea what i would do to make things right, to have you in my arms.

i tried to move on, i went out with a great guy and dated him. but still, he’s not you.

you came back after 365 days of studying abroad. you’re still the same person and i still love everything about you. we spent a day together, as friends. we went to the movies and i wish i could hold your hand during the movie, just like old times but then i realised that you are no longer mine.
just 8 more days left before you come back to the place that made such a good impact on you.

i still don’t have the guts to tell you how sorry i am to let you go and how much i love you.

it was my fault and i still blame myself for everything i did that made us separated

but hey, i wish nothing but the best for you and i want you to know that you’ll always have a special place in my heart no matter what

you were my first love, D.

i am sorry. i miss you. i love you.

yours, N.