For the person who will always have my heart….
I met you when I was young. Too young to understand what it was you wanted. You wanted something real and so did I. Or so I thought. I was too young and dumb to realize that I was the only one causing pain in the relationship. You did nothing wrong. You liked me for me. You called me to make sure I was okay. You facetimed me every night and wanted to fall asleep on the phone every night. I let my insecurities get the best of me. I let my insecurities push us apart. I listened to people who can’t keep a stable relationship. I let them decide if it was worth staying with someone I loved. Now that I’m older, I realize all my wrongdoings. I realize everything I could’ve done differently. But here we are. Almost two years have past. It was the worst day of my life. If i could go back and change everything, i would. I would show my appreciation for you more often. I wouldn’t listen to others advice about a relationship they knew nothing about. Sometimes I wish you would just come back. Tell me you never stopped loving me. Tell me that when you are with her, you think of me. Two years have past and not a day goes by that i don’t think about you and our relationship. They say that everyone has a “forever person,” and for me, that person is you. If you were to show up at my doorstep at 2am asking me to take you back, I wouldn’t even think twice about it. I miss you. I miss everything we had. The little inside jokes, the 4am facetime calls, the laughs, the movie dates. Everything. I miss hearing your voice and staring into those leaf-green eyes. I miss talking conspiracy theories with you. I miss hearing you sing me those dumb songs. I miss you. I miss you. I MISS YOU.