Five years, that’s how long we built our relationship, five years of ups and downs, crying and screaming and I few good times. Two weeks it took you to walk out of my life, to tell me you didn’t want me and delete me from your life like I never existed, and five months it’s taken me to realise that what we had wasn’t love, all the lies, let downs, crying, hitting, the un answered phone calls, that isn’t what love is meant to be. I loved having someone but you were never there for me, you never picked up the phone whenever I needed you most, you stood back and let me fall apart because it was too much effort.

I thank you for breaking me because now I realise I deserve so much more than what you gave me. And it’s what I needed to re build myself with a new life and new people round me who have did more for me in the few months they have known me compared to the five years I had with you. People who won’t let me down, won’t leave me because there caring people, like me. I regret giving you so much love because there’s someone else out there somewhere whos going to deserve and need it more than you did. 

You broke me, but you didn’t ruin me, you made me so much fucking better for someone else, someone who will appricate what I have to offer and will give me it back in return. I haven’t lost faith in men, I lost faith in you. You did something I wasn’t strong enough to do, walk away and for that I thankyou because I know now that I should of left you because I gave you everything while your now giving it to someone else. Thankyou for making me stronger. I hope your future is good. 

Love J.