Hey Esha,
Listen there is something I need to tell u before I go, i accepted the fact that I don’t mean anything to u anymore, I know you only talk to me cause I have never lied to you and always been honest with you or else I don’t know why else, fact is i miss you terribly, I know the past few weeks i texted u a lot and also wanted to call even though you were busy, I know I bothered you and I am sorry for that, Esha truth is i love you a lot. I am not saying it in the hope of anything happening or to gain something in return, you have made it pretty clear that it won’t happen…. that day we met after 3 years and when u left I felt so sad that I almost cried on the spot and i really wanted to run after you and hug you tightly and tell u how i feel, u might think its cringy or corny or whatever but I feel what I feel…. i know what I did to u 3 yrs ago was beyond unforgivable, I still blame myself everyday for that and question why did I meet u at the wrong time….. Esha the way I feel for u really makes me question if I really did love anyone else, cause even after 3 years I still haven’t been able to forget you, I changed for the better cause I know I needed to and when I thought I was ready that’s when I called you again myself to confess to you again, what I have with you I don’t want with anyone else, I know you have told me to get over u and all my feelings but it just doesn’t happen, don’t you think I tried? don’t u think i tried to find someone else? I talked to a few girls in the time we didn’t talk after our misunderstanding in jan and guess what,even tho it was going well and all and when it was time to make it official I backed down cause it wouldn’t be fair to her cause I am still in love with you…. I don’t feel like trying hard or doing things for anyone I am willing to do for you without a sweat, Esha I know I have hurt you in the past and I take the blame for everything, even though you were there always supporting me even when I hurt you so much I did what I did to everyone, I pushed u away and I shouldn’t have, it was my fault for not being strong enough to receive your love that time, whatever has happened and whatever will happen I will always be by your side no matter how bad it gets, I will never lie to myself again or to you ever, all i ever want from u now is to be by yours again for good but I know you don’t feel the same way, I don’t mean anything to you anymore but I can’t stop loving you like I do, so after saying this I am saying my goodbyes because just talking to u makes me want you even more than I already do….. I will always watch over you and support you from the shadows and love you in the sidelines from now….. take care of yourself and i really hope u get everything together in your life and be happy this is goodbye…..